Willing to Wait
Dear if u ever read this... i am willing to change ... will u wait ... i really going through alot since the day we broke up ... only thing left is u. I wish to be back with u...
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11:46 AM
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haiz movie
another day without her, haiz... tough to pass. Just now message her on gmail. she say she going to watch movie. Why i always so suay? wanted to ask her out for movie tml but she watching today. Dunoo wat show she watching and is she watching with. My heart aches again.Everyday it tends to ache to remind me of the pain i am going through. Some pple ask me are u sure she is the one for u? some ask are u ready to commit? My answers are all yes. I am willing to change for the better future i am ready to commit. But is she? Dear do u know how much my heart has ache and wounded for u. I have scars, i am weak, i am restless. Now i dun even know whether i got dengue fever since my fever have not subsided. All i know is that if u were to just drop me a care. I will be happy and forget abt everything. i willing to take this step dear ... trust me k. I am sorry to make my little princess sad.
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5:51 PM
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She's sick
Haiz, saw her online on msn and sees that she is sick. Down with flu. My heart ache again. For seeing her suffer. Dare not to be too pushy towards her. But dear if u are reading this. Pls understand where dar is coming from. I am caring for u, i love u and i always do. I wouldn;t wan to see the person i love get sick or hurt. I know i am useless, stupid and stubborn. But i really wan to have a future with u. I am quiting my smoking already. I trying very hard already to control myself not to bother abt u. ALL BECAUSE I CARE FOR U!!! ...dear all i wan is to hear u call me or message me dar. Then i be happy le. I miss u ... forgive me pls
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3:29 PM
Another day of despair
Haiz woke up, been thinking abt her all day ... my mind just can't get her out. I been controlling myself not to contact her. Becoz this is wat she wants. My life ended. My body is retarded. Nothing is the same again. I dunno how long i can control. But i will do it as long as she is happy. Nothing can change wat has happened. Nobody has the power to change the past. All i can say is dear i love u. I miss u so much. I hate myself.
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10:10 AM
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Hardest Fall
Haiz, heart is aching, screaming out of pain. While working i am crying, my tears for my loved one. My little dear dear. I can't make u happy. i can't love u le. becoz u dun let me le. Time will heal but time is a poison which will kill me eventually. My antidote is u. But i dunno why u wun. Loving u is all i need. My head hurts. I think i going to end up in a hospital le. Dunno u will read this or not. If i were to end up in a hospital, will u come? i am really tired. really can't feel where i am le. Now i am typing this now i am thinking abt our past. The times where i am always there for u, kissing u huggin u sayang u. times where we enjoy ourselves, getting our first in everything we do. First time get salsa, first time go holiday together. Arghhh my head hurts, is it really so difficult. YES it is.
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4:24 PM
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Final BreakDown
Yesterday was the day of my life where my heart had been shattered to pieces. We had our long talk. After that we left walking on both ways of our life, my heart is aching my heart is screaming but not my mouth. Probably i am still not the best she wans. She wishes to enjoy her life while she can and so we left. I had my bad points and partial of the reason of her leaving me too. I am defeated. Like a warrior who died in a warfield. Only diff is tat i wanted to be defeated so as to allow my princess be happy of her life. No matter how much tears and sadness, its not going to bring her back.To b cont~ Nid to go work
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4:04 PM
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